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- Prologue-
Kite
When I think of summer, I always picture
blue skies and sprinklers. No clouds, sweat on my throat and an
Italian ice numbing my tongue. That was what it meant for me. That
was the ideal.
So
today, on a June Friday in the park, surrounded by smiling faces and
with the weight of a gun in my pocket?
Well. It was pretty much perfect.
Don't
get the wrong idea. The gun and the happy people aren't related in
the way you think. I'm not a crazed mass shooter. I do have some
morals. Some reason.
Right then, that reason was dressed in
faded jeans and walking eight yards ahead of me. Thin as a rail, the
man looked distinctly like he never ate. The hotdog he held was out
of place in his bony fingers. He turned too fast, ketchup staining
his neck collar. That red splotch was foreboding.
I wasn't worried he'd notice me. I didn't
duck or dive or anything so ridiculous. Surrounded by the crowd that
had gathered for the marathon, I was essentially invisible.
A ghost.
“You
spot him yet?” The voice buzzed in my ear, feeding through my
bluetooth earpiece. Those things had gone out of style sooner then
they'd been released, but it was the only way Jacob could reach me.
Plus, secretly? I suspect he
thought they were cool.
Reaching up, I acted like I was
scratching my nose. I never took my attention off of my target. “Just
enjoying the sun at this point,” I whispered. “Hope you're not
bored over there without me.”
Jacob snorted. “Race is about to
start.” He paused, a smile coating his voice. “Sorry you'll miss
the action.”
“Now
you're just trying to be clever,” I said. Lowering my chin, I
tightened my grip on my gun. The target—sorry, I guess I should use
his name—Frank had changed directions. The way he was moving,
heading towards the start of the marathon where Jacob was... I'd need
to adjust my route. “How long, exactly?”
The earpiece crackled. I pictured Jacob,
weeding closer to the starting line. “Announcer is out there,
everyone is in position and doing that leg-stretch thing they always
do. Fifteen seconds, max.”
In my chest, my heart was starting its
familiar music. All drums, all going full tempo. Cutting across the
grass, I took long steps to make sure I could get in front of Frank.
Timing was everything, anyone who said otherwise was just waving away
their own fuck ups. “Count down for me when his hand is up,” I
said. It was a hushed demand. No one around me would hear.
Frank was slowing, his eyes—everyone's
eyes—pointing at the end of the park. I could see the milling group
of runners, the packed sidelines. I couldn't see Jacob, but I didn't
try to. I was stuck like a magnet on Frank's approaching figure.
I'd been behind him earlier, now I'd
circled in front.
“Four
seconds,” Jacob stated flatly.
A cool darkness settled over me. It
crawled from my belly upwards, then out; it made my fingers tingle on
the gun. Frank wasn't seeing me, he'd slowed on the path. The hotdog
hovered by his lips. The last thing he'd ever eat.
I never blinked, my lungs didn't even
flex. One breath was all I needed.
“Three,”
the voice said in my ear. I guided the Ruger from my inner pocket.
“Two,” Jacob insisted, and I sensed his excitement—like he
could see through my skull and experience what I was about to. He
hadn't said it directly, but how could he not be envious? This was
it, this was the epitome of our years in this business. Minutes
from now, everything changes.
It always amazed me, the way a single
second could stretch like chewed gum, going as far as your arms could
spread before finally snapping.
Clear headed, I switched off everything
but the hyper-senses I needed to execute the final steps. “It's
up,” Jacob said. “Go now.”
Frank grunted, turning my way when I
bumped into him. My nerves were at their peak, I could taste the
battery acid on my tongue. It always started that way, an acrid burn
that reminded me of what I was about to do.
The tip of the suppressor jammed into the
man's chest. I aimed without looking; I knew exactly where the heart
was. He met my stare, and I wondered—as I always did—what his
final thought would be. “Bang,” Jacob whispered in my ear.
A
thunder-crack, all eyes were on the runners as the announcer's pistol
went off. No one was watching me, no one saw or heard my silenced
weapon fire simultaneously. And no one would see my lashes flutter
with the thrill. Fuck,
I
thought to myself. That
rush. That fucking rush.
Nothing compared to this. Nothing from this bland world, anyway.
Believe me. I've tried every other high.
In my palm, the recoil was negligible.
The casing clinked in the brass catcher, confirming I'd leave no
evidence on the scene beyond the slug in Frank's flesh. I used the
most common twenty-two caliber bullets in existence. The authorities
could never match it, or know where to begin to try.
Frank stood there, too shocked to
respond. He didn't even drop his hotdog. I didn't linger, the gun was
back in my pocket and I was already walking past. Four seconds, that
was all it had taken to erase another human being. So easy—too
easy. Killing was what I was good at, it was simpler than opening a
beer bottle.
Long legs, calm strides, I strolled over
the plush grass towards the street. I was in no hurry. The job was
done.
I was at the front gate before I heard
the first scream.
“How
did it feel?” Jacob asked me.
My grip uncoiled from the weapon. I
smoothed the sweat from my neck. My brain was thrumming with a gallon
of endorphins. “You know how.”
For a second, he was quiet. “No,” he
said softly. “Not the kill. The fact it was your last one.”
Raising
my eyes, I judged the brilliant blue sky and beaming sun. Sirens were
coming in the distance; someone had called for an ambulance. It was
no good, of course. How
does it feel to know that was my last hit? I
mulled it over, judged what the right answer was.
Jacob and I, we'd known each other for
close to forever. We'd been kids, the first day he'd seen me alone on
an empty playground and changed both our lives by walking over. If I
could be fully honest with anyone, it was him.
That was what it meant to be Blood
Brothers.
“Anticlimactic,”
I said, ducking into the subway station. “Feels weird to imagine
that was it. Is that strange?” I didn't let him answer. “But it's
over. That was always the plan, right?”
The reception fuzzed below ground. Either
I'd lost him, or he'd decided to bite his tongue. “Yeah,” he
eventually said. “That was the plan. Hey. Let's celebrate tonight,
okay?”
“Yeah.”
I slipped into the subway cart. “Let's go big tonight. Make some
memories.”
Jacob chuckled. “See you at the bar,
Kite.”
“Sure
thing,” I said. The earpiece clicked; radio silence. If I was
right, Jacob would go all out for us both. He'd want to spend money,
fill our bellies with alcohol and our lusts with women.
Lots
of women, I hoped. Finishing a contract gave me a primal ache to bury
my mouth and cock in some sweet skin. My—our—last
contract. I guess it's good it went smoothly, but shit. Smoking an
old man in a park is a little... unsatisfying. I'd
told Jacob the word was 'anticlimactic.' That nailed it, alright.
In the mostly empty cart, I leaned on the
window. It was yellowish in the tunnels, my reflection smudged and
wobbling. Watching it, I recalled the summer day above me. The green
grass, the smell of life. The sound of another man's final moments.
In my pocket, the gun barrel was still
warm.
****
Jacob
One
two three four five. I walked the line, gliding my fingertips over
the necks of every top-shelf bottle I owned. Their perfect symmetry,
the way you could hold one and feel
the weight of it. Quality.
Kite had never questioned me about the
purchases. The guy never even peeked at an order slip. He didn't like
paperwork, and he trusted me to take care of everything.
I didn't mind.
It meant I got to buy what I wanted.
Turning, I counted the bottles in the
well behind the bar. A single twist, I could tell if they needed to
be topped off. The liquid quivered from my prodding, sloshing beneath
the single metal band that would say if the amount was right or not.
Aha,
I
mused silently. Pulling a bottle of vodka into the air, I held it to
the light. It was a fraction lower than the marking. Gripping the
stopper, the tip a razor edge of metal that could cut an unsuspecting
finger or gouge out an eye—if used right—I started to refill it.
“I
can take care of that, Mister Fallow!”
Glancing sideways, I noticed the waifish,
creamy skinned bartender—Anabelle. I was probably giving her a
heart attack, doing her job like I was. “It's nothing,” I said
gently. Replacing the bottle, I lingered on the pointed tip. “I
just like to have things a certain way.”
Her smile was hesitant, but she rounded
the bar to join me behind it. In her low-cut opal top and a pair of
needed-to-be-oiled-to-fit-leather-shorts, she would have blended in
better at a nightclub than next to me.
Our bar draws a gritty crowd, but I liked
to dress a certain way. What can I say? Give me a fitted business
shirt and a dark suit-jacket any day of the week. No one ever said
anything about it—besides Kite, of course. We both owned the Corner
Velvet bar, but only I acted the part.
Adjusting my sleeves, I peeled the
dove-grey material back to check my watch. “We open in twenty
minutes, Anabelle. It's Friday, remember that.”
“Sure
sure,” she said cheerfully. Brushing her long hair back into a
tail, she nodded at the door. “You uh, want me to tell you when
Mister Lawson arrives?”
Kite's last name was unfairly misleading.
“No. Just hand me a bottle of whiskey.” I didn't say which one. I
didn't need to.
Anabelle grabbed the fat bottle of Johnny
Walker Blue, slapping it into my open palm. Her pencil-thin eyebrows
dipped low. “Everything okay?”
I cradled the bottle protectively to my
side. “Certainly. We're just celebrating tonight, that's all.”
Her unease shifted, teeth bright in the
overhead lamps. “Really! What's the occasion?”
I looked over her head to the door. Kite
was pushing through, dressed in jeans and an over-washed green shirt.
He'd changed out of his clothes from earlier. “Call it the end of
an era,” I said evasively. Ignoring her baffled stare, I approached
Kite.
Pulling up short by the door, he looked
straight at the Johnny Walker. “Is that for me?”
“Thought
you might need it,” I chuckled. Holding it out, I let him take it.
The tattoos across his knuckles stood out, stark from how fiercely he
choked the neck of the whiskey. “How are you feeling?”
Balancing the bottle on his palm, he gave
me a wry smile. “Like you've let me down. This isn't enough alcohol
to call this a celebration.”
Laughing, I patted his shoulder and
guided him towards a quiet corner. “The night hasn't even started.”
Our bar was big, all dark wood and rich blue booths. We knew the
area, the kind of crowd who spent their money in this corner of the
city. New York was full of young people who were burnt out from
trying to 'make it.' They wanted to go crazy and lose themselves in
drink and noise.
It was the crowd we preferred.
I know, I know. Hitmen are supposed to
live quiet, subtle lives so no one catches them. The movies enjoy
portraying it that way, at least.
I'd like to justify our actions, our love
for alcohol and sin and sweating, screaming girls. I could say it was
fine, we aren't killers anymore. That we're free of the burden. Safe.
But that would be wrong in two ways.
First, we'd partied like this since the
day we came into money. Could we be blamed for that? After years of
struggling and scraping, we suddenly had more cash than we'd ever
imagined. Who wouldn't have gone a little overboard? The reality is
we got hooked on the lifestyle and never came back down. Over time, I
think we both got worse.
As
for number two... we were still
killers. We'd always be
killers. That doesn't just wash off of you. The only thing that had
changed—as of today—was we didn't take contracts anymore.
Frank had been our last.
The bottle thunked onto the center of the
table. Kite uncapped it, taking a long pull right from the opening.
He sighed through his nose, pushing the whiskey to me. Lifting my
eyebrows, I nudged it back to him pointedly. Kite took the hint,
swallowing another mouthful. “Good?” I asked.
“Burns
like hell,” he chuckled.
“Right.
So, good.” My smile didn't reach my eyes, neither did his. Kite
wasn't acting like himself. I knew today would weigh heavily on us
both, but I didn't want to think about the why of it. We'd finally
done what we'd vowed at the start. Five years of contracts, get the
money and set ourselves up. It was never supposed to be long term.
Who wants to be a murderer forever?
Staring at Kite, studying how he twisted
the bottle on the table, I was now wondering. I couldn't lie, it had
been an exciting life. There were ups and downs, but the ups... the
ups made you soar like nothing else.
The buzz you could get from whiskey would
pale when compared to pulling a trigger.
Reaching over, I took the bottle and
forced some down my throat. It really did burn. Wiping my mouth, I
stared at him over the rim. “Everything is fine.”
He sat up, fingers curling on the edge of
the table. “I know that, Jacob. Stop acting like I'm depressed.”
“Stop
pouting like a sad puppy,” I countered. Kite narrowed his eyes on
me, but there was no threat. Keeping my face emotionless, I forced
the whiskey back into his hand. He didn't have
to take it, I couldn't make his fingers close on the neck... but they
did. “I know you, Kite. I know you better than anyone.”
Wrinkling his nose, he shot his eyes
away. “Then you know I don't want to go into this.”
“The
fact that there is
a this—”
“Dammit,
Jacob!” he snapped, gesturing at me with the bottle. “How can
there not be a—fuck, a this, a whatever!” Lowering his tone, he
leaned towards me. In the red lamps, those black eyes resembled fresh
blood. “It was a big deal. I didn't want it to be, but it was.
Imagining that it's done just makes me feel so...”
When he didn't finish, I linked my hands
on the table. “So empty? So stale?”
He actually flinched, a smile slow to
grow. This one was genuine. “Yeah. Of course you know what I mean.
I'm acting like this is all about me, but it's the same for you...
isn't it?”
His question was a plea; a hint of
something vulnerable in a man who could cut a life short as fast as
his hand could close on a weapon. Kite had that side to him, a
sensitivity that was out of place. It made the cruel half of him more
shocking. People never got to see both sides, of course.
Just me.
“Yes,”
I said flatly. “It's the same for me. Kite, it's okay to admit it.
Thinking that it's all done... it's weird, but it's for the best.
We'll be able to pay off this bar in a few years without gaining any
suspicion, and we'll be living the high life until we're too old to
get our dicks hard enough to take advantage of it.”
His laugh took him by surprise. Kite
couldn't resist copying my grin. I knew what cheered him up. “I'll
never be that old,” he snorted. “Speaking of which, this place
better get busy tonight.” Another gulp of whiskey, and when the
bottle came down, Kite looked the way he normally did. That dark
humor, those knowing eyes and sharp smile.
Yes. This was better.
“It's
Friday night in downtown New York,” I said. Taking the bottle, I
sipped it. If I felt the fuzz of alcohol in my brain, Kite had to as
well. “When has it not
gotten busy in here?”
Chuckling, he jumped from his seat and
brushed back his short, copper hair. “Fair point. If all else
fails,” he said, pointing at Anabelle. “I'll just wet my appetite
in familiar waters.”
Rolling my eyes, I turned my chair,
reclined it. “She's seen you take hundreds of girls into the back,
I don't get why she puts up with you.”
“Because
I'm good with my hands.” Winking, Kite cracked his back. He stood
over me, suddenly hesitant—waiting to speak. I was patient. I
always had been. “Things are really going to change now, aren't
they?” he asked.
“Yes.
They have to.”
His lips tightened. “Are you worried it
won't be as good?”
“What
won't be...?” I trailed off; I knew what he was saying. Life,
will life be as good without the plotting and killing and violence. I
spoke without mulling too hard. “We made a promise, Kite.”
He
switched hands with the bottle. For an instant, it was a club. “Fuck
the promise, I'm asking if you're
worried the way I am. That life will be boring now. Forever.”
I couldn't answer that. It was a
challenge to imagine a world where we didn't witness that
flicker—that light—vanishing from someone's eyes. Saying it,
though? That would lay too much credibility to the idea that the two
of us were sinister creatures.
Was it possible to miss the adrenalin
high of murder and still claim some humanity?
Kite spared me. “Forget it,” he
sighed, looking over my head. Turning, I saw what he did; a crowd was
forming, eager half-dressed women who were ready to have some fun.
Slamming the bottle onto the table, he gave me a gentle shove. “It
doesn't matter. I'm ready to give this 'celebrating' thing a fucking
shot.”
I
said... something. It was a pointless, encouraging babble to make him
believe I would
forget what he'd asked me. That was what we both liked to do. Enough
substances in your brain, your veins, and you could forget all sorts
of junk. At least, for a little while.
Glancing over, I studied the Johnny
Walker. Half the bottle of whiskey was gone. Yes, if we wanted to try
and emulate that bloodlust of a high...
Well. We'd need much more alcohol than
this.